Hey Honey, listen to me, I'm 76 years old and have seen darn near
any kind of life you can imagine!! From family fighting that lasts a
life time, to a father who walked out on my Mom with 8 kids and the
youngest 8 months, to a cheating husband then life with a marvelous
man and we were married for 39 and one half years till he died.
You can overcome this, sounds to me like you need a short breakdown.
I kept threatening to go into a closet and having a nervous breakdown
that would make Bedlam look like a retreat for the nervous and trembly!!
Scream into your pillow..when in bed alone. Exercise, that will help a lot.
NOW, first of all, get out of the house and walk around the block, try to leave
your glasses at home. Glass blocks out a lot of the good rays.Depression
has been linked to a lot of things, and also lack of sunlight.
SECOND..log onto the Internet to FLYLADY.com. She is free with all her advice
on how to declutter and keep your house clean...for only 15 minutes at a time.
Clutter leads to depression and depression leads to dirt and clutter. Flyady
speaks of living in a state of CHAOS (Can't Have Anyone Over Syndrome),
which I'm sure lots of us can relate to.
Let us know how you are doing. I'm sure that between all of us, we've all gone
thorough at least a small part of what you are at this time. Some of us may
have gone through much more..but let's keep on the bright side. Better times
are coming.
You have your debts paid and that is something masses of people in America
can not say, so you are a smart and caring person.
Just do the best you can, for YOU. Your family will benefit from it too.
You can do it, and you have to do it for yourself first of all.