barbm,
Sounds like you are getting back on track. It is ok to have some 'down' time as long as it does not last too long to get back on track. I don't think you are clinically depressed either nor do you need long term meds. Someties a short term med can work wonders. Then you come of of it and you get on with things.
Unconditional love is what we moms give. Go to sons wedding, go to DB B-day only if it is what you want to do, try the life coach thing-it may help, re-think the work situation-sometimes we have to re-invent ourselves, the 15 minute rule is great to live by.
As far as Christmas being in your formal room-wanna try the tree still up?
Yeah I know but we could not get out to the shed where the boxes are stored because of all the snow, then mud, now the ice and mud from melt-off. However, DD brought boxes in 2 days ago, so guess I will work on it tonight.
As far as cleaning-when you die who cares how clean your house was or wasn't unless it was an absolute pig-stye(sp). Ease up on yourself girlfriend. Life is too short to sweat the small stuff.