So glad you are feeling better. Sometimes it helfs just to verbalize or wright it all down. Journaling is a great thing. Just know that all of us are willing to listen any time you need someone. I think one of the great things about this board is the sense of annonimity. We know each other but we don't and that makes it a lot easier to say some of the things that are bothering us the most. Also things that we wouldn't say to people that we know really well.