NZ, I will add my prayers to the others here. God's grace will meet your need in this time. I am so glad that you had the time to reach out to him and to let him know your were there and ready to pray with him through his last hours. In our heads we know the numbness will pass but allow the fog of grief to dissipate in its own good time. Let our good God wrap you in his loving kindness when your thoughts weigh heavy.