thx everyone I appreciate your good thoughts and prayers. After chatting with hubby this afternoon we realized I have been in a decline for the past month to 6 weeks but didn’t recognize the symptoms as it’s been at least 10 years since I have had problems. The only 2 times in those 10 years depression reared it’s ugly head was when there was a mix up in my meds. Other than that I have pretty much been AOk. No mix up in meds this time. No idea what brought this on, the total despair was so frightening but with everyone’s encouragement, prayers, time and love this should fade into the past