Hi,
If there is any way possible - GET TO A DOCTOR!!! I'm not one but I would guess you're suffering from clinical depression. I lost both parents in a house fire and I fell apart. It took me several trips to various doctors and several different prescriptions to find the "right" one for me, but I DID start to feel better! Life sucks sometimes and each of us probably thinks that nobody else has the crap to deal with that we have and then we're in a downward spiral. Get some help and I think you'll feel stronger and more apt to tackle what life throws at you. Then, you'll feel like cleaning and when your house is clean, you'll feel great!! Good luck!