Ibex, you sound so sad and working hard to be positive but also acknowledging the possible fragility of your four-footed friend. I can do nothing except send ((hugs)) and prayers for peace as you spend precious time with your little pal. The fact that there is no pain is marvelous and a blessing for you both.
If you have not made a block for me. Feel free to skip it. I will make an "extra" that will count as coming from you. That would mean at least one less for you to press through when your mind and heart is else where.