You know sometimes it seems the same people keep getting "hit" over and over. I don't know why that is . But I think your saying about "making it a new day" is a good one. Some would just set stop. Give up. But others like you keep going. I don't know what makes the difference. I guess if we could make a pill for it, we would be rich. Hang in there. What you have been through is a terrible grief as terrible as losing someone you love. Im not saying material things are as important as people, but it still is a life changing event. I hope you aren't alone. Jackie