Dear Gwyn,
Please know that you always have someone here who you can talk to, cry with and when your ready laugh with too. Allow yourself to be sad but don't allow the sadness to become who you are. You are still the same person, who loves her family, and loves to sew, and has a heart as big as a house when she knows someone is in need, but now you are also the person who misses her dear Randy. Seek the support of others who are going through this at your church or a counselling center, or a local organization, these groups exist because at some point nearly everyone is going to have to deal with the things you are trying to get through right now.
Love and prayers,
Lori