I am sorry for your loss. I've been there. My husband of 32 yrs passed away last July & sometimes it still feels like a dream I'll wake up from & he'll be back. Healing takes time-don't push yourself. I read somewhere that when you go through a loss like this "normal" is not what it used to be. You have to adjust to a new "normal". Just get through one day at a time. Even though it may be hard to concentrate on things try to stay busy. Don't hold your emotions inside. Cry if you need to cry. Tears can be cleansing. I know your hurt is very real & things are difficult right now. My prayers are with you.