I am so mad I wrote this whole thing out and then my page was gone. I will try this again if I can remember what I said the first time.
I could write a book on hardship, kindness and paying it forward. Our family had about a year where things were extremely tough and we had to rely on others for such things as food, paying bills, gas and other household items. It is hard to be humbled in such a way when you are used to having all that you need. At first I think we didn't want to admit that we were in need but when it got to the point where we couldn't buy food or pay the bills we had to find help somewhere. There was times that I didn't eat so the kids would have food. My DH worked evenings so he didn't really understand what was going on and when it hit him it really hurt cause he didn't feel like he was a provder for his family. When we finally asked for help it started coming out of the wood work. Not 1 single person wanted us to repay them in any way. So I have been paying it forward for years and will continue to do so for years to come.
Unfortunatley I have learned that there are people out there that only want a hand out that don't want to work and provide for themselves and then they selfishly complain or grip about what you did for them because it wasn't exactly what they wanted. I know that there are people that can't due to medical reasons so please don't get me wrong, I am more than happy to help those and those that are just down on their luck.
Now I owe you all a heart felt thank you because of what you all did for me and didn't even know it. Back in 2006 when I was Pregnant and losing my mind due to hormones going wacky I found the QB while searching the net for something to help me get control of things. I would sit for hours and read the QB and I would forget my problems and be able to relax. I couldn't quilt cause I couldn't sit and do it, didn't occupy me enough. I kept a dairy of that time and when I go back and read it I realize just how messed up I was and it scares me to think my family had to deal with that. So here is a big {{{{{{{HUG}}}}}}} and grateful thank you to all who allowed me into your quilting world even though you didn't know it. Paying it forward to me means that we are way better off now plus I enjoy it. But I would never keep track of how many times I received help, that doesn't matter what matters is that I will spend the rest of my life paying it forward again and again.