Thank you so much Gerbie. I laid awake half the night last night just talking to God and woke up feeling so calm and at peace. I really think it helped to do that. I lost my husband in 2005 to lung cancer 3 months after he was diagnosed.It was a shock. He had never been sick in his life. Now I have re-married and life is good again and I am finally getting back into quilting, so I really don't need this in my life. It took me a good 4 years to move on and get myself together. I never thought I would ever be happy again. I married a wonderful caring man who will help me get thru this . He brought me back to God after being away for over 30 years and it was like coming home.