Well, being in Massachusetts I don't live close to you either Brandy. but do you get the feeling this was the best place you could have asked your question? I looked at your etsy site. You make some really cute things. I'd like to encourage you to stay positive and let us know how you are doing with all this stuff you are dealing with. You are important so take care of you!! and that will help you cope with the other important parts of your life. Stay tuff!