I understand completely and agree you /we should be grateful for what you/we have.....but dreaming is okay too!
I wanted a tin lizze longarm for about 10 years. I could never afford a new one, and never found a second hand one I could afford until this past Feb. I found it on kijiji for $2000.00. It was 4 years old so this was an unheard of price.
I tried it, fell in love ,thought long and hard about it and took my annual bonus and bought it. So dreams do come true!