everyone is bad at first, there are very few people in the world who can just sit down and stitch beautifully right from the beginning, instead of beating yourself up put together some small quilts and start practicing on them start small (like a 12" square) you can make it into a potholder later...as you get good on ones that size make a 15" or 18" square and keep practicing, making your practice projects a little bigger as you master each size. you will be pleasantly surprised how quickly you are quilting queen sized beautiful quilts.