I'm sure we've all had our pity-party days. Don't give up! It really does take practice to do anything well. I remember my first attempts at hand quilting. I couln't quilt a straight line with uniform stitches for anything. I almost gave up but finally my stubborness kicked in & I told myself I will learn to do this. And now I my hand quilting may not be as good as some quilters but I'm satisfied with the results & get good feedback. Just starting to learn freemotion & haven't progressed enough to try a full size quilt but I'm getting there. I'm sure you will get there too. Have patience with yourself. As my grandmother used to tell me "Rome wasn't built in a day."