So sorry for your loss. This is normal from what I have heard from others. You are still grieving. It's ok. It will come. Sending hugs and any time you want to talk more about it, contact me. Sometimes talking it out helps. A friend of mine lost her husband months ago--she just is now starting to set up a sewing place and trying to move in that direction. Her hubby did not quilt with her. Sending hugs.