I understand for different reasons I have been the same.. but have you thought of hand sewing, I find watching the television and hand sewing very relaxing, don't plan too much just grab some fabric, whatever tools you need and off you go, doesn't matter what it is, then maybe you will find like I did that the inspiration comes to go in your room and get planning. No rush it is to be enjoyed. I found it helped to ease other problems in my life too.