Sounds to me like you're trying to be superwoman. Give yourself a break. I collected fabric for years before I finally had time to actually make quilts. A person can only do so much without breaking down. My mother used to use the word lazy a lot to describe others. I really took it to heart & really tried to not fit that description. Eventually I started thinking & realized that she was actually the lazy one. Pot calling the kettle black? lol Hang in there. Quilting time will come.