You sound exhaused. I worked 36 years as an RN and then taught high school for 3 years. When I decided to retire, all I could do was sit around mostly or sleep. I was completely worn out looking out after everyone else and not myself. Have been retired for 3 years and loving it. Of course you may not be ready for retirement so just take care and time for yourself. My husband would rather I spend all of my time with him but told him I need time for myself also... I have bought a lot of material I think trying to catch up with all the years "Im going to do that when I retire" statements I made... Try to get some rest... Good luck...