I know how you feel. We moved to the "country" from big city when 1st gd was only a year. they would come spend a week during the summers but now that they have gotten older 21 and 18 now Only see them when we go to town for family gatherings at MIL. Not sure why but daughter has grown away from us and does not keep in touch. I have tried time and time again to keep the lines open but just meet brick wall. Really makes me sad at the holidays. I had such a close relationship with my grandmother and ended up taking care of her in her last years. I miss having a relationship with my girls. I keep hoping things will change one day.