I know how you feel, but believe me things do get better. I have to leave a project for another day when I get frustrated. Sometimes online tutorials have helped me. There are free ones on UTube. It does help me to practice on scraps as well. I don't feel pressured to "get it right" and I also don't bother to take out stitching I'm not satisfied with. FMQ is a challenge. I don't think anybody really just sits down and does it perfectly the first few times. Take a deep breath, get a cup of tea or coffee or hot chocolate and know that you can come back to it another day. Also know you have friends here who sympathize with you! I do hope you will feel better soon and will have good success with the next try. Please keep us posted. We really do want to know!