I am sorry. Oct is still very new for a loss. TAKE your time you can not rush the griving process. I tried but I only made it last longer.
My grandma gave this to me right before she passed to help me deal with the loss of 2 of my students.
Celtic Night Prayer
Do not hurry
as you walk with grief,
it does not help the journey.
Walk slowly,pausing often:
do not hurry
as you walk with grief.
Do not be disturbed
by memories that come unbidden.
Swiftly forgive,
and let God speak for you
unspoken words.
Unfinished conversation
will be resolved in Him.
Be not disturbed.
Be gentle with the one
who walks with grief.
If it is you ,
be gentle with yourself.
Swiftly forgive,
walk slowly ,
pausing often...
Take time, be gentle
as you walk with grief.