I can relate. I am resolved to know that being without a job after 26 years is my new normal. It has been hard changing our daily lives, but I feel more strongly about how much I missed all those years not doing what I really love to do (sewing, painting, crocheting, etc). And now I have all the time in the world and a very supportive dedicated DH who allows me to do it. When friends and relatives become ill or pass, it makes me realize how many years I amy or may not have left to get all this stuff done. We all have our stories, and it has taken me almost 2 years to realize that I cant dwell on what wasnt, but will be! Enjoy what you have and what you still can do. Before you know it, you will have satisfied yourself and those around you by getting all those projects done. Do it for yourself!