I would say find some other quilters in your area. A guild or just a group who get together to quilt or just to get together. Our "guild" just does UFO's, mainly, but everyone gives opinions and is very willing to help out with borrowing patterns and things like that. We have a small library for books and patterns. We had a man show up one night and say "teach me to quilt". We helped him and he has made quite a few by now. I love the friendships in our group/guild. I am inviting your to ours but hey, your still hiding.lol Not sure how far you might have to travel to join us.