I understand what you are saying. But just think what wonderful pieces of yourself you will leave behind. I will be 70 soon and I am making as many things as I can so more of me will be left behind to remember. We never know what is around the corner so just turn that corner and go for it. I know tht you will find much joy in your working with the fabric and will relish all your finished projects. We all send our love and you know that you can get on this board and get all the suport you will ever need. Lots of good suggestions here. Just keep plugging along and turn tht corner. BrendaK