I'm going on 34 years of marriage. We have 2 grown daughters and I still adore him, but if something happened to him I doubt if I'd ever get married again. It would be nice to have only myself to take care of (and clean up after!) The difference between now and when you were 20 is that now you know you can take care of yourself, and frankly, your relationship is probably better with a little space between you. Contrary to the opinion of many 20-year-olds, marriage is definitely NOT like one big long date!