Originally Posted by Jamie
Thank you guys so much!! Really...I sat here and cryed my eyes out for a good 30 min, then with the tears and all of your kindness I started to feel better.....I don't really have much time for self pity....and I am a very active person...actualy I am trying desperatly to Gain some weight right now ( Yes thats right gain ) I have a high thyroid which makes keeping weight impossible, and I end up a 93 lb stick! But I do walk...actualy just the amount of times I go up and downstairs in a single day is more excersice then most people need in a week lol
I've always kept a very positive attitude, and I am always there to help everyone and anyone around me who is in need...I just have Never taken that help before. Actualy I don't really know how to except gifts and kindness from others, since I'm usualy the one giving..But none the less...Thank you all so very much!!! I think maybe with a truck load of chocolate, and some new projects to work on I will feel better in no time :)))
I have been gone all afternoon doing a Gazebo Bash at the Post (that is a yard sale with attitude <g>) .. just got online and found your post.
Good job!
Sometimes, we think: If I were a more capable person, I would never cry, I would never feel one way or the other, I would always know all of the answers. If I really were a woman fully growed, I would never have to ask for help from anyone, not even my mom and dad!
I remember working the coffee counter at the restaurant one morning in my hometown. I was standing off to the side while the men talked to each other. Most of them, I had gone to school with. I don't remember exactly what was said, but I had a light bulb moment - - I was almost thirty years old and life was not going the way I thought it should.
I could definitely point to some mistakes I had made along the way (I think I have only been innocent three times in my life - - most of my damage has been done by me to me, so!)
I am standing at the waitress station, thinking about this phenomenon, and then I realized what was happening.
I had just discovered a truthful fact of life!
For some reason, I thought that when I graduated from high school, I would know exactly what to do every step of the way. Somewhere, I had gotten the notion that by the time I was thirty, I would have no more questions, and the reality was - - I had LOTS of questions!
Everything about life and living was one big question ...
and the lesson was: the questions are part of life and living. We will NEVER be old enough to know everything, we will always do a lot of personal introspection.
The thing that makes life so exciting is the same thing that makes life so difficult ... crossroads - - every decision is made at a crossroad.
Or, how about this? Did you figure you should always have a reason for everything you ever did in your life? I NEVER wanted to tell my children - - Because I TOLD you!
reality? I finally had to say "Because I TOLD you!" (The neighbors were starting to talk about what it meant to have me telling my kids "Of course, you can - - your eyes are brown." Or, "Your eyes are brown. You cannot do it!")
The point is: sometimes, our expectations of life are different from reality.
It doesn't matter who is to blame for how we got to where we are ... we only have one person we can truly control and account for - - and, the wonderful thing is: God doesn't expect YOU to account for MY actions ... it really is between just you and God.
I am sorry that you had to cry, but I am so glad that you gave yourself permission to just feel whatever it was you wanted to feel.
Okay, so it was a bit longer than five minutes, but the amount of time isn't the key, Jaime ... the key is to make sure that you know when to let it start and when to make it stop ... as long as you drink enough water, you will always be able to cry if that is what you are feeling <g> ...
But, you did good ...
Is it time for the other part of the five minute rule??? LOL