Brooke, I so sorry to hear about your Grandma. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers
I'm still trying to get myself back together. 3 years ago I was entering my 17 year in a successful career working for a metro school system. I went from being an assistant in the classroom to being in charge of all student records, contact with many outside agencies. Then out of the blue, I became a cancer patient. I took chemo, had surgery, was HEALED!!! Only for it to come back a year later with additional bagagge. Nerve damage, short term memory loss, having to leave my job because I kept getting lost trying to get to my office.
I used to know who I was, now I'm just kind of lost. Not sure if I'm coming or going, just trying to keep my head above water. No worries, I'll get it all figured out. Everything just kind of reached a peak the other day when I had a mini meltdown.
I take Gabapentin/Neurotin for my neuropathy. It can have a depressive effect on the body. That on top of S.A.D., which I do take happy drugs for, sometimes I just want to crawl up in the bed and stay their. If it's dreary, forget it. Everything hurts more and the drugs don't seem to work. As someone suggested (fried brain, can't remember who), I do take Vitamin D. 4000 units daily plus a mini of 15 min of sun exposure without sunscreen (it's the only way to convert the Vit D into a useable form in the body. sunscreen actually blocks the conversion) Many people, especially women, have Vit D deficency. Low D has been linked to depression, obesity, breast cancer and several other diseases. I'm also on Oxycontin every 4 hours. It helps, but makes you feel like there is something crawling all over your skin. "The Junkie Itch", heroine addicts have the itch.
I'm going to talk to my Onc in January. I've been doing some research on the marinol. There is some information out there about it's effect on neropathy pain. It's not been approved yet, but I think I can get it on the grounds that I've got to take Previcid (daily) when it's only usually only prescribed for a month tops. Otherwise I end up with a very upset stomach. Plus lack of appetite. No idea why I have high sugar and a fat butt, I don't eat. I actually get hungry maybe once a day, but I HAVE to eat several times a day or my blood sugar numbers crash. I force myself to eat a poptart or a bowl of cereal. The marinol will help with that as well. I have partaken in the natural alternative, but my supply has been shut off and the smoke does a number on my asthma. I want to use the marinol and loose the Gabapentin (or take a MUCH lower dose) loose the Zanaflex, Previcid, Prestique. I may be able to get rid of the blood pressure and sleep meds too. I've got to keep the asthma meds. I hope to keep the Oxi too, for those days that are bad.
I thank you all for your kinds words, I'm good really. Lurchie and I are still in the house for now. We are waiting for our Bankrupcy trustee to give us the date, don't want to rush him!!
We have been spending the last couple weeks rounding up toys for the kids that come to the Pet Food Bank that we volunteer with. Here's a link to some of the pics from today. Can't wait to see pics of the kids opening their presents.
https://www.facebook.com/#!/pages/Grett … 8297431743
I haven't even looked at step 5 or 6. d the Got the table cloth done for my Uncle and finished quilt I was commissioned by my Aunt to make for her Granddaughter. I'm taking some time away from quilting myself, but I will be here checking in with ya'll. If needle and thread just happen to jump into my hands then so be it!!
Everybody have a wonderful holiday in whatever shape or form you celebrate it in.