I really, really wanted to learn so took a class at lqs. And am I glad I did, well worth the $45. Practice, practice and practice some more all while watching Leah Day, of course. And a good stiff drink to bolster your courage can't hurt.
Quick question: Are you judging yourself too harshly? If you compare what you do as a learning student against completed projects by professional quilters (or those who should be professional) that is not a fair comparison. So give yourself a break and remember to have fun.