Sweetie, I just want to add one thing. I understand the need to mourn what was lost, but you did not lose you!! That whole better half thing..pphhhhhttttttttt YOU were a whole before you met the man, and I'm pretty sure he didn't take half of you with him when he left. YOU are and always have been a whole! Like Mamagus, don't let him own anything he isn't deserving of and he definitely doesn't deserve to own your creativity or your spirit. Do your Whole New Life Quilt, then finish those that you started prior to his leaving, one at a time between new projects and donate them to a battered women's shelter. That way something good comes from the pain that you felt, and can lend comfort to someone elses.