I would pick a way of quilting and stick to it and get better. Have you tried a thimble on your finger? I use 2 when I hand quilt. The one holding the needle is one that has the rubber body and metal tip. The other one has a ridge around the top so that the needle doesn't slip. I prefer the rocking method of quilting, but it doesn't cause me pain. So you have to decide which one you prefer. I would also work on even, straight stitches. Don't worry about how big or small they are. They will get better with time. I don't think it will take decades to get better. Are you entering your quilts to be judged, if not, don't worry about it so much. I hope I have encouraged you. Keep at it and good luck. Gina