My advise would be to find someone you know that has completed this pattern and can "walk" you through the part of her book you don't understand. It might be just some simple thing you are having trouble wrapping your brain around. So many times, something seems way easier, if someone would just explain it in person. Don't feel bad, as it happens to everyone. Sometimes things just need to be explained a different way to be able to be understood. That is how our brain works.