I think its out of my control - does that make sense? I went through years I sewed and then when my kids were little I sort of slowed way down. I find it wonderful therapy. My job is crazy.. a lot going on and some long days. But when I start working on my machine all of that work stuff goes away. Its like sewing purges all of that nasty work stress and thoughts out of my mind....and someday I hope to be blessed with a grandchild.... and I consider my work now practice.. learning more and more. So that if I am blessed with a grandchild I will be able to make a wonderful quilt for that little baby. Maybe they will have that quilt still even after I am gone