Arianna, I too am so sorry to hear of your granddaughter. I have grandchildren and the grief would be so heavy.
To answer the original question, I love to sew and I love fabric. I learned to sew when I was 12 and from then on have never been able to go past a row of fabric without touching it. I stopped making clothes many years ago and picked up and did intricate crosstitch for 20. I decided to try quilting which I enjoy but it's still more because of the beautiful fabrics and the actual act of machine stitching, not so much the finished product. I don't have time to quilt and crosstitch both. I have fabric and patterns for 5 quilts, plus the ever growing stash. I went through my cross stitch fabric and patterns last week and pulled out several I want to do. Quilting or crosstitch, which will win?