I am so sorry for your loss. Have you gone to Felinedrive.com? they have some great patterns and maybe you can make a tribute quilt or wall hanging of a kitty like the one you lost? I made a calico kitty for my friend who lost hers and she loves the gentle reminder. They have some very easy fusible applique quilt blocks and quilts of just about every single type of cat out there. My 19 yr old is sitting on my lap right now with his paws on my shoulder irked I am typing not petting. Big baby.