I have suffered from clinical depression since the late 70s. It is hard to explain how you feel.
I had tried many things and nothing seemed to change the way I felt. I remember when people would say just get out and do something you will feel better. I tried, I have a great life and everything to be grateful for, but just could not seem to get it together sometimes. Finally in 2004 after my husband got laid off for the 6th time. I was a basket case, could not concentrate, slept all the time. And then I found a doctor who really knew his stuff. He realized I was having an anxiety attack as well as being depressed and gave me something for the anxiety, and it worked, and only have to take it when I feel really anxious, which is now not that often. Then he started to ask me about when was the last time I felt happy about something and I could not tell him and he started going back into my history. He suggested a drug that I had never heard of and instead of being something that has to build up in your system if it is going to work you will know it in a couple of days. I could not believe it within one day, I could concentrate and although it is not what some call a happy pill, I felt normal for the first time, I found joy in almost everything I do and it takes a lot to upset me now. I still have an occasional day I may feel depressed and as the Doctor says welcome to normal. I have been taking this now for over 6 years and I am grateful everyday as is my DH. I use to go crazy over the littlest upset and could sleep for days. Now I am in a good mood most of the time and find the good in almost everything.