JHolm

MJ - I have my own meter and test my sugar levels. The confusing part about this whole thing is that very suddenly my levels are low more often than normal. It is rare for me to have a high sugar level and then it will only be like 102 or 110. My lows are in the 40's and 50's. I was diagnose as diabetic in 2006 due to a high A1C test and family history but except for that one high A1C test all the others have been normal. My weight at the time I was diagnosed was 233. I got serious and followed the ADA diet and lost 130 lbs. Since then my blood sugar levels have been normal except for an occasional high. Now all of a sudden my levels are low and I have other s/s of hypoglycemia. So my doctor says because of the weight I lost I no longer have diabetis but have switched to hypoglycemia. Then he tells me the reasons this could be including a tumor on my pancreas, liver or kidney damage so that's what he's testing for. If I don't get any answers I'm going to ask for a referral to a specialist. My doc says he's never had a patient switch before and he really doesn't know what's going on but he ran the tests because these are the things that usually cause hypoglycemia when diabetis hasn't been in the picture. :|

JHolm

Thank you everyone for your concern and support. I really need it. I weigh in the morning between 3:30 and 5:30 a.m. depending on when I get up. Most often I have had a couple cups of coffee before weighing. Should I be weighing before the coffee? I'm taking a survey what do you guys think?

nancia, you must be getting excited the day is getting closer!

oldcottontop

Good mornning to everyone on this wonderful Sunday morning. Hope everone's day went well yesterday.

I had a pretty good day. Stayed within calories and did my exercise. I drink plenty of water each day. I have a calendar in the kitchen and each time I drink a glass of water, I put a check mark on it. Then at the end of the day I count those plus what I have drank with meals and enter the total on MFP. I drink a lot of ice tea also. I weigh and measure ALL my food that I eat at home. I even bought more measuring spoons and cups. There were times when I would get one or the other and the size I wanted would be in the dishwasher. So I went to the $Tree and bought what they had of each. No excuse not to measure now.

Tomorrow is my day to weigh in and I am getting excited. Never thought I would be excited to step on the scales. But I just feel lighter....and soooo much better. Thanks to all the support that we receive on the site. Just logging in and telling someone each day how and what I'm doing is a big plus.

Everyone have a blessed day.

charity-crafter

Yesterday was a bad eating day. I fell back to my old ways of stuffing the fealings down because I don't want to deal with.

My mom had an allergic reaction to something, her tongue and throat started to swell up-she's had it before so when it looked like the bendadryl wasn't working Dad took her to the hospital and they kept her overnight and gave her the shots and everything. She's fine now. But it brougt out all the feelings I've been repressing.

I live 1/2 a continentent away from my family for a very good reason. My father is old school, we never would know what would set him of. He'd yell at you in the screaming angry face way that you know he's either going haul off and hit you or he's going to have a stroke.

But it's only to his family. Outsiders can do anything or say anything to him and he takes it and acts like it doesn't matter.

He has to be the center of attention, he gets extremely angry if not.

He talks down to my mom, wants to keep her in her place with him, 40 minutes from town out in the middle of no-where. He won't let her go anywhere because he's allergic to every climate but where they live. And she's too old to galavanting around without him. She's stopped driving because he would back seet drive all time. She used to be so vibrant and active, with friends to do things with. Now she's 83 yrs old and just sitting in that house waiting to die.

Honesty, I thank God just about every day that my sister is 14 years older then me. She's the one who raised me and proctected me from my father and told me that this is not right, don't marry anyone like our father.

So today, I guess I should just accept the fact they did the best the could with the knowledge and skill set they had. and I just need to get over it.

I'm working on naming the emotion that I'm eating to stuff down. I think it's anger. I'm very angry that she's allowed him to treat her this way and with him for treating everyone this way.

JHolm

Hi charity, thank you for sharing your pain with us. I can relate to how you're feeling. My dad used to beat both me and my mom. He spend many years in prison for his behavior and managed to get my mom arrested also. She was always too afraid of him to tell him no for anything. He always carried weapons and I knew from a young age that he would never hesitate to use them. Probably the only thing that helped me make it through the first 12 years of my life was spending so much time in foster care. He's dead now and I can't say I miss him. Mom's gone to but I do miss her. Lfe is tough sometimes. Hang in there and have a nice day. God Bless!

nancia

jeanne--yes, i am so excited and impatient for the 19th to get here!! olivia, here i come!! and jeanne, you're in my prayers where ever i go!
oldcottontop-- sounds like you've got a plan and it's working! keep it going strong!
charity-- it could be fear. anger certainly, and a strong resentment for being made to feel helpless and weak, and also anger at your mom for caving in and not protecting you. and the same for your father who's role it is to protect you, not attack, belittle and terrorize you. and that's just the start of what you could be feeling. no wonder it's difficult to deal with, and simpler just to eat all that anxiety away. but you are stronger than that, and smarter. your father taught you that he is not strong enough to hold you down, and you do not need to build a physical barrier of fat around you to keep him away. you are an adult now and you can choose not to let him control your feelings any more. you can't control what others do, but you can control your reaction to it. seize that control and use it to choose healthful respectful foods to nourish yourself and construct the kind of body you want to have. you can do it!
i am losing weight. i am in control. it is up to me.

elm

Definately weigh in before drinking coffee. Liquid weighs a lot.

JSNOMORE

Wasn't my best week. Only 1.5 lbs lost but it's still a LOSS
Raining here all week so walking may be difficult. I guess I'll have to find a new excersize. maybe yoga

elm

Just weighed myself. Still no change. But, not gaining is good.

mim

Hugs to you Charity -- he sounds like my ex. When you stuff food you let him get to you. And I tell my sons that I did the best at the time when they asked why I didn't leave earlier. Unfortunately we can't do anything except be there in prayers for the ones who suffer.