isnthatodd

Awesome :!: Sounds like you took control and your immediate family pitched in. Sometimes I am amazed at what happens if I just take one little step. I am bookmarking you and looking forward to hearing about your progress. You are already an inspiration to me, and I am going to go do 10 minutes worth of something (probably laundry, which I like to do).

kapatt

My husband put up florescent, indirect lighting in our living room, dining room and family room. (Living room and dining room are somewhat open and next to each other.) There are times when I get depressed for no reason. That is when I turn those lights on. Boy does it light up the rooms. My husband said it looks like an airport runway...laughing....but in the winter time, he encourages me to turn them on when I'm starting to feel depressed. It works for me. The lights give me energy and helps to get me motivated. This might be another factor in everything bothering you. You might want to look into great lights (at least for one room) and see if it helps during the winter months.

wvdek

barbm,

Sounds like you are getting back on track. It is ok to have some 'down' time as long as it does not last too long to get back on track. I don't think you are clinically depressed either nor do you need long term meds. Someties a short term med can work wonders. Then you come of of it and you get on with things.

Unconditional love is what we moms give. Go to sons wedding, go to DB B-day only if it is what you want to do, try the life coach thing-it may help, re-think the work situation-sometimes we have to re-invent ourselves, the 15 minute rule is great to live by.

As far as Christmas being in your formal room-wanna try the tree still up?
Yeah I know but we could not get out to the shed where the boxes are stored because of all the snow, then mud, now the ice and mud from melt-off. However, DD brought boxes in 2 days ago, so guess I will work on it tonight.

As far as cleaning-when you die who cares how clean your house was or wasn't unless it was an absolute pig-stye(sp). Ease up on yourself girlfriend. Life is too short to sweat the small stuff.

Honey

So glad you are feeling better. Sometimes it helfs just to verbalize or wright it all down. Journaling is a great thing. Just know that all of us are willing to listen any time you need someone. I think one of the great things about this board is the sense of annonimity. We know each other but we don't and that makes it a lot easier to say some of the things that are bothering us the most. Also things that we wouldn't say to people that we know really well.

mrsjdt

Sending you comfort and peace in the shadow of angels wings..they're always there!!!!......sure sounds like depression (been there). As for your kids, you nurtured them...and now nature has taken over. They're adults, and make their own choices...you have no hand in it any more...as for your sister, rather thoughtless I'd say. You reap what you sow...you DO have other plans right? Taking care of YOU? And depression doesn't NEED a THING to make it happen...you CAN mature in to lacking a chemical in your brain...just like people acquire diabetes. No shame in it...have a chat with your Dr and keep us posted. We DO care..that's what friends do.

Lisanne

Bravo!!

You got some things done, you felt really good about mailing those packages, and you're a bit better, even if not all the way there.

Sounds like DH & DS are pitching in, which has to help.

Time helps, too.

oldswimmer

Sending you big hugs from me.... I think many of us can relate to what you are going through. I just want to say that when you do see your Doctor, do have your thyroid tested and your FSH (estrogen) If that is starting to fall, it will affect you in many ways. I started having all sorts of trouble, and never imagined it was menopausal syptoms. But I dont recall you mentioning it, so having a doctor check would be beneficial. Sounds like you are getting some things done that will make you feel better. Keep up the good work! And go easy on yourself. We are all collectivly sending you good thoughts and prayers!

Barbm

I keep pushing myself- trying that 15 min. each time. I finished all the wash, shampooed the spots on the carpet in the guest room and formal living room and dusted the guest room. I think I know why women in the 40s did not work outside the home- the antique furniture full of decorative wood and veneers. OMG- took me 30 min. to get all the nooks and crannies. But the room is done!

The formal living room will be tackled tomorrow. I think once this room is "back on track"- picture perfect I will feel better. I don't like messes and I think I felt out of control with the mess.

I'm watching E!- Marie Osmond talking about her son's suicide and her bouts of depression. I know how she feels- the loss of my brother almost 5 years ago has left me so sensitive and any talk of it just sends me back to day 1 and the incredible loss I feel to this day. But, you know what's weird- I pick up pennies, wherever I find them. I was told sometime ago- it's pennies from heaven and someone is looking out for you. Today- I was cleaning the guest room, I clean even though no one goes in there and no one has stayed over since early Dec. I had already shampooed some spots so I was on my hands and knees in that room- but- when I was dusting, I was following the line of the armoire and went down to the floor- and there it was- a penny! Right out in the open, how weird- I immediately thought of my brother and smiled.

Oh well- relaxing now by ironing fabric and cutting strips for a swap. Think it will be an early night, I'm tired from all this cleaning!

Debra Mc

I think this called the Serendipty Prayer. My manic/bypolar sister carrys this charm on her key chain. Her doc told her when she has problems to stop & read this & she says it really helps.
Man I wish I had your energy. Hope tomorrow is a better day. Deb

Debra Mc

I have heard people say they love to iron because they press out their problems or the same about dishes. Just wash away your problems.